Monday, April 9, 2012

Heaven

I woke up on the first day of my most awaited Holy Week break with tears in eyes.

When one of my best friends passed away, I never had those “paradam” or hunted stories. After the pasiyam or 9-day novena made for Anna, I never felt any signs of encounters from her. I was all sad and silently grieving over the past weeks. There was no day that she wouldn’t enter my mind. I was always reminded of the thought I lost one great friend and a lifetime wouldn’t be even enough for me to forget her.

A few days ago, I dreamt of Anna. We were in our usual meet up, in a mall that hosts a sale of our favorite branded items. Our usual scene, I was busy browsing at shoes and bags while Anna is patiently following me. After some time, Anna called my attention. She told me that she needs to go. The exact words she uttered was, “Diane, kailangan ko ng umakyat. Kailangan ko ng umalis.” (Diane, I need to go ahead. I need to leave.) I held her hands and told her “Sige umalis ka na. Pagdating mo doon i-hug mo ako para sa Lola ko ha.” (You can go ahead, Anna. But when you get there, please don’t forget to hug my grandma for me.) I woke up crying. 

It was only a dream but everything felt so real. If that was God and Anna’s way of telling me that she is in a better place right now, then I will do my share of letting go. I will try my best to let go of a best friend, who was and will continue to become a part of my life. You maybe gone, but your memories will remain with me forever Anna. You will always be the one and special Anna in my heart.

10 comments :

  1. Oh my goodness Diane, this is powerful. Dreams mean something. Sometimes it's not so obvious and other times we know exactly what they're telling us. Anna will remain in your heart forever and that's the way it should be. Thank you for sharing this.

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  2. *tears*

    Thank God for comfort only He can provide. Money can't purchase that.

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  3. That is such a sweet post...brought tears to my eyes!
    ♥ Kyna

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  4. This is such a sweet post, Diane. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, but so glad you have found some comfort from your dream.
    CAS

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  5. Such a sweet post! I can remember a dream I had of a family friend who had passed away. She was my aunt's best friend, and our families were close. A few months after she had passed away, I was pregnant with my oldest daughter. I had been having some complications, so of course I was feeling a bit anxious. I dreamed about Ann, and in the dream she was wearing a beautiful cream-colored outfit. She always dressed so pretty! In the dream, she told me not to worry about our daughter. She said, "Your daughter is fine. Don't worry. I have seen her!" I woke up, and I had a feeling of peace.

    I considered it a gift.

    Thanks for sharing you story with us!

    xo,
    RJ

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  6. Diane, I really believe that dreams like that are more than just "dreams". What a sweet experience. That's what I think it was. Think of all the scriptures that talk about heavenly messages being delivered in dreams. God loves all of his children - not just prophets - and I believe he shares important messages He has for us, sometimes through dreams. Thanks for telling us about this. That is really tender!
    oxox
    Denalee

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  7. What a beautiful dream, Diane. I think this was definitely a message from Anna and God to you. I am so happy they reached out to you in a dream to help you in your grieving process. You are such a sweetheart... and I am so sorry for your loss still.. but I am so happy that Anna is still reaching out to you to tell you she is ok. You are amazing. Sending thoughts your way. :)Have a beautiful day.
    Love,
    Amanda

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  8. (I'm not sure if my comment posted so I am typing again)

    What a beautiful dream, Diane. I am sure it is a message from Anna and God to tell you that Anna is doing well now. This was such a beautiful story... I am so glad to hear that Anna has reached out to you to tell you that she is ok and that this is meant to be, even if it is unbelievable. Sending thoughts your way, Diane. You are such an amazing person. Take care of yourself.. let yourself grieve.
    Have a beautiful day.
    Love,
    Amanda

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